So. I haven’t updated this blog in some time, despite prior promises to do so once or twice a week. Now that the fall 2011 term is over, I’m going to try updating it more frequently — at least once a month, hopefully.
It has been a strange semester. My transition to living in Chicago was smoother than I expected it to be; and I now know that I can never willingly go back to Rockford. My mental health in general and PTSD in partiular have oscillated wildly since coming here. I have begun to manage my personal and professional lives almost exclusively from a tablet computer. An old lover who hurt me in the summer reintroduced himself, and after some hesitation I agreed to let him back into my life. We are now in a relationship that, despite my infrequent jealousy and frequent insecurity, makes me very happy. Usually. My time management skills, or lack thereof, suffered as a result of that decision. I began smoking (Virgina Slims 120′s menthol) to cope with stress and frequent anxiety. I confessed to the alcoholism that has emerged since my brothers death, and am beginning to take steps to eliminate that. I had a brief affair with Tumblr that lasted all of a week. I learned that mindmaps are the best way for me to take notes and manage information, and have been consistently using them for that purpose for three months. My epilepsy took a turn for the worse, with me experiencing a grand mal and ending up in the emergency room around Thanksgiving. That’s never happened before, but it may happen again if I’m under enough stress. Despite reading lots of Dostoyevsky (or perhaps because of it?) I am not much closer to solving the question of religion and theodicy that has plagued me since my brothers death.
So. Yeah. I’ll be here in Chicago for most of the month of December. Classes start up again on January 09. More on that later…
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