Gone out
I need to deal with school and nurse my neck back to health — so I’m going to drop off the grid for a few days. I’ll be back for the weekend.
Koyaanisqatsi
For the past five years I’ve been living with someone that doesn’t really like me very much… We’ve had some good times, sure — but more bad. I’ve searched for a medication that would allow the two of us to form an uneasy peace, but until recently that battle had proven useless.
Enter Lamotrigine. The American pharmacy wanted 198$ for sixty twenty milligram pills. I got a hundred twenty five milligram pills from Canada for twenty five dollars. (throws his imaginary hat onto his imaginary hat rack) My thanks to the magnificent humans living in Victoria BC.
All of the other medications I’ve used to treat this disease have either physically wiped me out or done lots of nothing. Three weeks into this course and I can tell you that this, that Lamotrigine is having a lovely moderating effect: the valleys are not as deep and the peaks not as high. It does not destroy depression nor does it destroy hypomania — it just moderates them. My disease no longer spins wildly out of control in one direction or another…there is a barrier, a box if you will, that allows me to function and operate on a consistent basis. This drug moderates, and it does that job very very well.
A word on side effects: they are few, but pronounced. I suffer from extreme dry mouth in the morning that only goes away after drinking about twenty four ounces of very cold water. I’ve experienced one very (very) strong tremor in my left hand (which means it originated within the right hemisphere) that was limited to the left hand. This tremor was strong enough to prevent me from typing; this lasted for about five minutes. I have had few suicidal thoughts—something that happened with alarming regularity with previous medications—and my paranoia has decreased substantially.
A summary: this drug is very helpful for me at the present time. The good is outweighing the bad.
Finally, a few word on what “koyaanisqatsi” means: it is a word derived from one of the Aboriginal tribes of the Americas—specifically the Hopi—that can be translated as, among other things, “life out of balance”.
See you in the world.
Ways and means
There have been a lot of questions asked of me these past few months — the biggest being “What are you going to be when you grow up?”. Truth be told: I don’t know. I cannot answer that question, all I can do is paint a few broad strokes about what I think is going to happen.
On paper and in practice, I am a dual major in English (Writing–Journalism emphasis) and Theological Studies & Christian Ministry, with a minor in Inter-cultural studies (With a probable focus on LGBT issues, but I am going to try to see if I can create a religious LGBT focus…). One of the most interesting aspects of the TS/CM major is that I will probably spend a semester somewhere outside the Americas, with the University of London—SOAS or 関西外大 being the most attractive opportunities.
While that is lovely it does not bring me any closer to answering what it is that I’m going to do with the next six decades. I love religion, I love exploring the various religious persuasions on this planet. I love what the chaplain of this campus does. I love talking to individual human beings and forming a real connection with them. I love writing, I love using the English language to communicate my ideas and thoughts. … I’m going to be doing something that mixes elements of activism, journalism and religious experience(s).
(laughs) A few months ago I had a lovely dream…a lovely dream that was probably the result of an overworked and underpaid brain — but I digress. I dreamed that I was both a chaplain and a journalist — a journalist who travelled throughout the Indian subcontinent and the EAC. I was reporting on and collecting, writing about my experiences in those place — and often coming back to a “home base” in the form of Chicago.
It was a dream, and it was a fun dream. Perhaps one day something along those lines will happen.
See you in the world.
Musings from station 353
One of the things that I need to start doing is this: write a short reflective paper on exactly what it is, if anything, I learned from a particular course. Performing this task has been something that I’ve said I’ll do for over two years now…and it hasn’t happened. Today we will change that: this is an attempt to remember what I learned, what stands out most in my mind.
During 2010 J-Term I took Religion 353: Religion 353: Personality, spirituality, sexuality and relationships. Had the actual course been anything like that I would have been delighted… but it wasn’t. The course overwhelmingly focused on psychology from a Jungian perspective, with dashes of religion thrown in every now and then.
- For the first time in nearly twenty two years of life I found a usable definition for existentialism, one that actually made sense. Existentialism is, quite simply, the search for self.
- On 2010-01-11 the professor spoke at greater length on his own background. One quote in particular stands out in my mind:
[Having a background in religion] allows you to see the painting on the larger canvas.
- Within the Christian tradition, there are different types of prayer that are helpful to the different core personalities (NF, NT, SJ, SP). NF’s are attracted to Augustinian prayer; NT’s to Aquinas. By curious quirk of fate, SJ’s are attracted to Ignatius; and SP’s are attracted to Saint Francis. More information can be found from the book.
In truth, that’s really about it. I’ve just gone through my notebook and those were the most interesting things I found. I know that the claim was made that I would type out all of my notes and release them under a CC licence, but that really is unnecessary: the content above is the most useful information.
See you in the world.
Week three
- Week three day one, 2010-January-28: seventy two reps made up of sets of 12, 17, 13, 13, 17.
- Week three day two, 2010-January-30: eighty reps made up of sets of of 14, 19, 14, 14, 19.
- Week three day three, 2010-February-01: ninty two reps made up of sets of 16, 21, 15, 15, 25 (21 + 4).
He shall, from time to time…
Article two section three of the American Constitution says that the President of the United States “shall from time to time give to the Congress information of the state of the union.” On 2010-January-27, President Obama—a man who I voted for—delivered his first.
It has been a rough year for the American people; for the Democratic party; and for me — to say nothing of the President. He came to office one year ago on a tide of good will. We thought—! I thought that he would be able to fulfil the vision of the late Senator Robert Kennedy. I quote from the Senator’s victory speech upon winning the California primary on 1968-June-04. These words were spoken mere minutes before his assassination:
I think we can end the divisions within the United States. What I think is quite clear is that we can work together in the last analysis. And that what has been going on with the United States over the period of the last three years, the divisions the violence and the disenchantment with our society, the divisions—whether it’s between blacks and whites, between the poor and the more affluent, or between age groups, or in the war in [Iraq]—that we can work together. We are a great country, an unselfish country and a compassionate country. And I intend to make that my basis for running.
I wish that Robert were still alive — that is a man I’d have loved to meet.
The President has bent over backwards and gone out of his way to be bipartisan, to attempt to heal the divisions within the current political and social structures; and its fairly obvious to anyone with a pulse that the opposition—the GOP, the teabaggers and the minority “leadership”—has no interest in being bipartisan. They wanted him to fail. They still want him to fail. We all remember the words that were spoken a few days after the POTUS took office:
Still. Its hard to “move forward as one nation, as one people” when twenty percent of the country thinks that he is a “Kenyan usurper” and/or a Muslim communist-fascist-Nazi-socialist (A note to the teabaggers: pick one!) … A year into this Presidency and we’ve had some victories. A compromised stimulus bill was passed. We had a fairly smooth Supreme Court confirmation — although I frankly would have preferred Pam Karlan as the nominee. We got the Matthew Shepard Act passed. We are probably on the verge of somewhat meaningful health care reform. A little less than three years remain of this Presidency: I’d like to see a lot more.
At this point I’d like to talk about certain elements of the speech.
So we face big and difficult challenges. And what the American people hope —what they deserve—is for all of us, Democrats and Republicans, to work through our differences; to overcome the numbing weight of our politics. For while the people who sent us here have different backgrounds, different stories, different beliefs, the anxieties they face are the same. The aspirations they hold are shared: a job that pays the bills; a chance to get ahead; most of all, the ability to give their children a better life.
That’s a lovely thought and it would have been a perfect opportunity to shake things up, to change the system. He could have brought everyone else in — he could have brought the rest of us in from the cold! He could have mentioned all of us—he could have mentioned the Constitutionalists, the Communists, the Greens, the Libertarians, the Pirates, the Socialists, the Whigs and all the others—and appeal the the entire political spectrum (not just the center-right and the right) but instead he chose the status-quo, to maintain the false-binary of Democratic or Republican politics. If he wants to be a great President, then its time to roll up the sleeves and start moving the country away from the two-party winner-takes-all system.
…we can put Americans to work today building the infrastructure of tomorrow. From the first railroads to the Interstate Highway System, our nation has always been built to compete. There’s no reason Europe or China should have the fastest trains, or the new factories that manufacture clean energy products. Tomorrow, I’ll visit Tampa, Florida, where workers will soon break ground on a new high-speed railroad funded by the Recovery Act. There are projects like that all across this country that will create jobs and help move our nation’s goods, services, and information.
This has always been one of my biggest issues in American politics: until now no politician has been willing to invest in high-speed domestic passenger rail. I hope and pray that Mr Obama will change that — give me a high speed train that lets me leave Chicago, spend the day in New York and be back in Chicago within a single day and you’ll make me the happiest boy in the world. For fuck sake, the current system takes twenty six hours—!—to move me from Chicago to New York on a one way trip!
And let’s tell another one million students that when they graduate, they will be required to pay only 10 percent of their income on student loans, and all of their debt will be forgiven after 20 years –- and forgiven after 10 years if they choose a career in public service, because in the United States of America, no one should go broke because they chose to go to college.
This was the single greatest thing I heard all day long. For four classes / one semester at Elmhurst College—for one semester!—I am now 17000$ in debt. Seventeen thousand! What the frak!? If the Congressional Leadership can get a bill like this passed and if the President signs it, I will probably run—maybe even try to be elected!—for the Illinois State House or the American House of Representatives, that is how much I approve of what the President said.
So, as temperatures cool, I want everyone to take another look at the plan we’ve proposed. There’s a reason why many doctors, nurses, and health care experts who know our system best consider this approach a vast improvement over the status quo. But if anyone from either party has a better approach that will bring down premiums, bring down the deficit, cover the uninsured, strengthen Medicare for seniors, and stop insurance company abuses, let me know. Let me know. Let me know. I’m eager to see it.
(raises hand) Oh, oh oh! Pick me! Pick me! Single payer. Medicare for all. Nobody is excluded, everyone is in if they want to be. That’s a better approach!
Starting in 2011, we are prepared to freeze government spending for three years. Spending related to our national security, Medicare, Medicaid, and Social Security will not be affected. But all other discretionary government programs will. Like any cash-strapped family, we will work within a budget to invest in what we need and sacrifice what we don’t.
I’m already a political pariah, so let’s talk about it: why is it taboo to even think about cutting defence spending? Really. For the fiscal year of 2010 (2009-October-01 through 2010-September-31) the United States of America will spend seven hundred and fifty five billion dollars on defence.
Seven hundred fifty five billion.
Seven hundred fifty five billion.
In the fiscal year 2008 the People’s Republic of China spent sixty four billion. Russian Federation? Thirty eight billion. Republic of India? Twenty four billion. Brazil? Fifteen billion. DPRK? Seven billion. Islāmic Republic of Iran? Seven billion. United States 2008? Six hundred sixty four billion. United States 2010? Seven hundred fifty five billion.
Really, what or who threatens us? Terrorism? The war on terrorism is a misnomer: terrorism is a tactic. You can’t wage or win war against a tactic. The DOD’s budget can be cut by two-thirds and we would still be spending four times what the Chinese spend! Take that five hundred billion dollars we just saved and give one fifth of it to the Department of Education; one fifth to NASA; one fifth for development of domestic JR–Maglev lines; one fifth for development of geothermal/solar/wind technologies; and use the rest to start paying down the national debt…. Why should we freeze domestic spending but maintain or even increase security spending? Let me commit political sepuku: the United States can and should slash military spending.
The confirmation of well-qualified public servants shouldn’t be held hostage to the pet projects or grudges of a few individual senators.
(stares at the junior Senator from South Carolina)
This year, I will work with Congress and our military to finally repeal the law that denies gay Americans the right to serve the country they love because of who they are. It’s the right thing to do.
Why stop with DADT? Why not instruct the Justice Department to stop defending the past and instead focus on making sure that Section One of the Fourteenth Amendment to the Constitution applies to me and every other gay American?
Okay. Time for me to get off my soapbox and go back to the business of being a student. My faith in President Obama has been shaken many times this past year—most notably by his failure to fight for the public option—but he still has enough credibility with me that I can say, with all honesty and respect, that the speech gave me hope. We had a rough year — but the President, the executive branch of the government can still be an effective instrument for real change in American politics. Hope is still alive.
See you in the world.
Thoughts on the iPad
Approximately 29 hours ago Apple revealed its long awaited “not-a-netbook” iPad.
Could it set the American eBook market on fire and single-handedly kill Kindle? … Yes.
Could it be the “best thing evar!” for computer illiterates like my grandmother? … Yes.
Could Apple have chosen a better name? … Yes.
Is it beautiful? … Yes.
Do I need one? No.
The initial “OMG!” feelings and euphoria that usually accompany an Apple event have again worn off, and I am now able to step back and see the iPad for what it is: a great device for non-geeks and an awful one for geeks. I don’t need it. My 8GB second generation iPod Touch already does almost everything the iPad does — it has the parts of my music collection that I enjoy; it has my entire personal photo collection; it handles portable games quite well; and it is my eBook reader. Is the iPod Touch perfect? No, but its fairly close.
Let’s do a brief rundown of the major areas that Mr Jobs tried oh-so hard (iTunes link) to sell:
- Full(er) screen Safari is not a selling point. My desktop and my netbook already do this with the magnificent Google Chrome, and they have Flash!
- Most of the emails I send are fairly short: there is no reason for me to buy an iPad to send/receive email when the desktop/Touch/netbook work just as well. I will admit however that the notion of using the iPad as a portable PDF viewer is attractive…
- Higher resolution photos are attractive but I would need a proper 16:9 display for most of my personal ones… And quite frankly, I don’t need or particularly want to see all my photos in high resolution; I will survive and thrive with the Touch.
- The new redesigned interface for the Music app is kinda nice — but the iPad isn’t something you use for music. My Touch is already doing that job and its doing it quite well thank you.
- I have never liked iTunes — our relationship could better be described as one of mutual hatred. I use it only because Apple makes me — if I could skip it and use and older version of Foobar for music management and podcast downloads I would do so in a heartbeat.
- The redesigned Calendar and Contacts are visually stunning and I want them. I must be frank: if I were to buy an iPad this would be the reason why.
- Google Maps integration is lovely but my iPod touch already does this without an internet connection.
- Youtube now has HD content!? (yawns) Can I download videos without a jailbreak? No? GTFO. … Yes, its nice to have some of my video collection with me for those boring moments — and that’s why I have a netbook.
- The battery life is wonderful — my netbook’s battery has passed on and is lucky to hold a 15 minute charge.
- Gaming isn’t particularly important to me any more: give me Final Fantasy or Zenonia and I’m the happiest boy in the world.
- IBooks is very nice, but why? I can purchase Kindle books (iTunes) and send them right to my Touch; or I can be forever content with Eucalyptus.
- IWork looks beautiful, but why? Why would I want to type a lengthy document on that? If I were to have written my religion final on that device my hands would have died from pain. Yes I’m aware of the keyboard accessory—and yes, the idea is attractive—but iWork is not a selling point for something that it shouldn’t be focused on. My desktop and netbook are not threatened by iWork.
Allow me to quote Stan Schroeder now:
iPad is not about creating; it’s all about consuming content.
This applies to me as much as any other geek: I create more than I consume. I’m content to create with my pieces of paper, netbook and aging desktop PC. I don’t consume digital content that often, and I’m quite content to consume that little bit through the iPod Touch.
I don’t want an iPad. I want a forth generation iPod Touch with at least 64GB of flash memory and a still-camera (its a pain to drag this around in my bag all day). If Apple had announced that today I would be thrilled and would immediatly be saving my pennies. But they didn’t, and they probably won’t do that for another eight months.
For now, the final word on the iPad is this: I’ll pass.
Religion 353 final
My Religion 353 course is now complete; and the (only) course paper is now released under a Creative Commons 3.0 Attribution-Noncommercial-Share Alike license.
Only two rules apply: follow the licensing procedures; and don’t be evil.
A few words on languge
My native tongue is a rather horrible combination of American and British English. I’ve only had one official experience with learning a foreign language, which occurred in 2004. The teacher of that Spanish course was so horrifying, such a viscious mindless witch that I only learned one critical phrase:
¿ Donde esta la Embajada Americana ?
Where is the American embassy ?
Yes…I despised that teacher. Despite that negative experience I have not entirely given up. I am twenty one point four standard years old. By the time I am twenty four point four, I would like to be able to speak (if not write) at least two additional languages, namely Hindi & Swahili.
Why those two? Several reasons:
- The subcontinent has a massive population, and the Hindi-Urdu language is spoken by nearly a seventh of humanity. If I can speak and write Hindustani I have the theoretical ability to stumble through the religious texts of Buddhism and Hinduism. … India and Pakistan are members of the nuclear club — coupled with the PRC, their influence is not going to decrease anytime this century… Exploring India has always had a greater appeal to me an exploring the Middle Kingdom — one day I would like to fulfill that wish.
- East Africa has a magnetic pull for several reasons … It is the birthplace of our species. Africa remains an underdeveloped continent, courtesy of the short but deep European conquest. Why Swahili then? Its a native African language. Although not spoken by a majority—but about five percent—of Africans, it continues to rise in importance among The Five, and will probably become the lingua franca of the EAF. … I hope to explore this area one day, and Swahili will help me do that.
My knowledge of these languages will never be complete — nor should it be. It is my hope that learning two to three thousand words from each will be a damn good start however….start small, one word at a time.
Tuonane katika ulimwengu.
Ass kicketh
My immune system is getting its ass kicked by the flu virus right now…I’m going to drop off the radar for a few days.
See you in the world.
